... or simply general changes that I want to make in my life.
I am extremely blessed right now in my life. I have a wonderful family that, while they live a ways away, talk to me a lot and we have a very good relationship at the moment. I have a great job that I look forward to going to every day (or almost every day). I have an amazing boyfriend who constantly amazes me with his patience, guidance and love. Life is great and I have a lot to be thankful for.
While all the extrinsic aspects of my life are going very well, I have been struggling with a few inner issues. I have muddled through them and learned a lot about myself in the last month, but they are still a work in process. I made the decision last week that, in order to turn these problems, weaknesses, and worries into successes I need to make some personal changes in the way I look at things and how I am living my life. If I can work on being proactive and more positive, I know I can start working towards being a happier and productive individual.
1. I want to start working out again. I have been slacking a lot on that and it won't be easy. I move out of my apartment in a month which has a fitness area. For the next 5 months I'll be sharing space until I can find a place to live closer to my job. So, I will have to find opportunities to work out whether it means working out inside to movies on Netflix or finding a cheap fitness club I can get a month by month membership to. For the next month, I can still work out at my apartment, so that's what I'll do until I have to find an alternative option.
Currently: Not working out at all
Goal: Month 1 - Working out at least 3 times a week 30 mins +
2. I want to start eating healthier again. I go in waves and currently I am devouring any and everything in sight. I feel sluggish and my digestive system gets messed up when I eat poorly and I need to make better choices.
Currently: Whatever
Goal: No fried food. Eating fruits and veggies everyday. Using a food journal app on my iPhone (now that I actually have one).
3. I want to cut back on the alcohol. I have been drinking every weekend for a while now (not necessarily getting drunk but having at least one drink every weekend). It's making me feel bloated and sluggish and my stomach has been messed up more than usual. My mom sent me some medical information about how drinking can affect your risk for cancer and other unpleasant health issues. I want to cut back for my own peace of mind, as well as the hope that I will feel better.
Currently: Drinking once to twice a week.
Goal: Drinking once to twice a month.
4. I want to start going to church every week. I need to strengthen my faith. I've been battling a lot of insecurity and fear lately and I need to go to God with my problems. It will help me mentally, physically and emotionally to start going to church. It's one hour a week that I can dedicate to God.
Currently: Going to mass off and on.
Goal: Going to church every week.
5. I want to blog consistently. I miss writing a lot and I need a place I can keep myself accountable and go over the events of the past week. I can keep track of what I'm eating, if I'm working out, any thoughts (good or bad) that have affected my week. I've been keeping a lot of things inside and they've been coming out very sideways lately. I know that once I think about it and converse with myself that I see the situation in a new light and I'm able to understand the real reason for whatever I'm feeling or thinking. Having a place to work things out will help alleviate some of the emotional extremity I've been prone to.
Currently: Pretty much not blogging at all.
Goal: Blogging once a week.
6. I want to do something new every week. Whether it's a new recipe, restaurant, workout or picking up old projects I never finished or starting a new one, I want to get back into more activities. I have a lot of video games I want to start and finish and I would love to get back into knitting. I've been looking on Pinterest a lot lately and I've found a lot of crafts I'd love to do as well.
Currently: I'm a bum.
Goal: Every week trying to take time to intentionally do something different or new.
7. I want to be a better a girlfriend. Alex has been an amazing support in every aspect ever since I started dating him. He's always there for me no matter what the issue is. He's great at apologizing and he not only listens and offers advice but he also tries to look at situations from different perspectives. I want to try and help him more. I would like to make meals more often, keep him room cleaner and offer to help out with laundry, ironing. I can't help him with his IT stuff or a lot of other areas that he is involved in, but I can help create an area that he can feel comfortable in. I also want to be stronger emotionally. I want to a healthier person so he doesn't have to worry or deal with my occasional outbursts. He takes such good care of me, I would like to return the favor in the ways I can.
Ultimately, I want to do the things I know I should and create healthy habits. I want to appreciate the people I love and not disappoint them. I don't want to be a selfish person and I want to be able to look outside myself and focus on helping others more than I focus on my own needs and wants. This is my New Years Resolution and, realistically, a life long resolution.